My grandmaother died on August 10, 2011. Many of the things that we have talked about in class remind me of what I witnesses during the fianl weeks and especailly during the fianll hours of my grandmothers' life.
My grandmother was very healthy person, always, At 90 years old she was wallking around, cooking, sewing, speaking about events of her life from 70 years befroe with perfecr calrity and no memeory lapses whatsoever. Never did I go a single day without speaking to her, at the very least on the phone and I always saw her a the very least once a week although usually 3 to 4 times a week. You could even say that she was like my second mother.
In June she sudddenly fell when walking to the bathroom and broke her hip. She underwent surgery under general anesthesia and came out of the surgery perfectly fine. It was while she was in rehabilitation tha tshe started gettting worse, saying she couldn't walk and her sugar, blood pressure, and heart rate were throug hthe roof. She sugar levels actaully reached 560 from the normal 130ish it's suppossed to be at for her age.
She went back and forth from the hospital for the next two months and she developed pneumonia and eventually pulmonary edema, which i fluid in her lungs and chest cavity. She started having trouble breathing and was tired of being on a bed and people poking and prodding her. She was ready to go even if we weren't ready to let her.
Like we said in class, she became more aware of what was going to be her end and she didn't want to bring it up to upset. She was giving up on wanting to live.
In the end, her breathing evened out and she lost her awareness completely, going into a daze and eventually closing her eyes for the last time. Her breathing slowed down until she fianlly stipped. She has that pale bluish skin color that was described in class and we were surprised becasue she was not dong well and she got better and then..she died.
I miss my grandmother very much and I miss her precense in my life now more than ever because I am getting married in 3 weeks and she wont be there when always thogu hshe would. She was the first one to know about my engagement and now she wont be there in person but defenitely in spirit.
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